Thursday, April 30, 2009

Call Me A Bitch

*It’s always never too late to mend things up*

Admit it,
You’re calling me a bitch deep down inside.
You know what??

To keep on bitching about how pathetic my life is without Darren is stupid!
I’m not gonna bitch about it,
I’m not gonna cry about it,
I’m so not gonna be desperate for him anymore.

I know you guys will be like,
Woah she finally wakes up.

And Yes, I AM AWAKE NOW!!!!
I’ve realized that by being so negative because he has a gf,
WHY NOT,
I evolve myself to someone better??

I don’t wanna be overweight anymore,
I’m so gonna lose weight,
AND I MEAN IT!!!

Thanks dearest Sammie for accompanying me throughtout my pathetic bitchy moment.
Thanks for all your advice dear.

I’m so gonna change myself from today onwards.

Wish me loads of luck!!

P/S: I met my old bus guy today,
but u know what?
He’s not my type anymore :D

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After…

*I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one’s heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time*
-Faber Drive

I can’t believe that i actually cried for you,
It feels so wrong to be an intruder in this relationship of yours,
I don’t mean to be the bitch,
I don’t want to be THE bitch,

But it’s so hard to control my feelings.

After much anticipation and excitement with you,

After sitting so close to you this morning in bus and train,
hands sliding beside each other so tightly,
After you called me yesterday night,
(yes, he did call me when he knows i’m sad)
After asking me how i feel and making me like you more,
After telling me to rest more and drink more water,
After hearing your voice asking me what is “Merci Boukoup and Good Night”
After telling me that the bus is on its way,
After telling me that you’re 20years old and your birthday havent pass yet,

After parting goodbye when you reach your station.

*I know it feels like the end
Don’t want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don’t care
We’re gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again*
-Faber Drive

How can you tell me that your gf is going by your house?

How can you hurt me by telling me that?

*I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?*
-Faber Drive

This world seems to be so dark to me now.

I wanna cry so hard now,
it’s so painful to bear all this,

I feel like running towards your hug and tell you everything,
it’s so painful to bear all this alone.

Can’t you just give us a chance?

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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Hurt Hurt

*Winds are Crashing Down On Me,
But i know that this cannot be the end*
-Fireflight

I’m so hurt right now,
I should be happy,
and i think part of me is happy,
i think so.

Baby Darren will always be my Baby Darren,
although his heart belonged to other already.

He called me today,
We went back today,
His hand brushed my butt a little,
He sat beside my car,
He told me that he wont take away my tortise,
He said that he can’t read in car or he’ll get dizzy
He said that he wanna watch football on Saturday.

I miss him.
I will miss him.

He sms-ed me,
asking me to share my problems with him,
He sms-ed me,
Telling me that he don’t mind sms-ing him even though he’s having dinner.

Why must you go to others?
Why?

I wanna cry now,
i feel so hurt,
it’s so painful,

It’s so painful to see you again every morning,
I wanna give you back your world,
I wanna leave you,
I don’t wanna see you anymore,
I wanna forget you,

But it’s so painful to do so,
I still wanna see you,
I still wanna talk to you,
I wanna learn more about you,

Is it possible to do so?

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Excited!

*Nothing In This World Can Stop Us Tonight*
-Paris Hilton

Okay, i know that i just post something like, few hours ago?
But i’m really so excited that my heart is thundering every few minutes.

Omfg shit oh shit i think my heart vessels are gonna burst anytime soon.
I desperately wanna sms him right now,
and the thought of it is making my heart beating faster and faster,
like NOW,
that i had to take a really deep breathe to calm my heart down.

Baby Darren is my caffeine :D

I hope that time can past soon,
when it hits three,
i shall get ready and wait for my car to be ready for me,
as mom’s taking sis at 3.20pm,

Wtfuck lor, why on earth did she end at 3.20pm today??
Means i have to kinda rush, reaching klcc at around…4.30??
As i’m gonna drive to train station n take train,
And wait for baby darren to finish work at 5pm :D

I will wait for him, no matter what time he ends.
Fucking lord, i think i’m going crazy anytime soon,
Like NOW.

It’s only 1pm!!!Gosh, how can time be so slow?!
When we want it to be fast it just crawl so slowly!

Dont really have the appetite to eat today and last night,
ate only one sweet so far :/

Owh, and, about my Baby Nokia,
Dad just bitch about it to me,
Apparently they called dad up already :D
Whoopie, the good news that is.
The bad news,
it might cost around 800 bucks to fix it @.@

Dad asked me not to use it,
and bitch about how to take care of my phone properly.
So Sorry, didn’t appreciate my Baby Nokia before this.

Gahhhh..

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When I’m With You

*When I’m With You,
The World Just Change*

Woohoo,
Sorry for not updating yesterday,
Went out from 6.30am-11.3pm.
Woot.

Anyway,Went to Malacca yesterday for assignment.
Yeap, we’re THAT responsible.
Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha.

Anyway, can you believe that the world is so small??
We bumped into few Taylor-ians there too for their assignment.
Woah, Taylor’s student can be So hardworking!!!

Anywhoo,
As usual, get up the bus at 6.30am,
and bumped into my baby darren, as usual :D
Something was not right that morning,
cause he’s not sitting at his usual place, which is either at the front door or back door.
Instead, he sat at the 4-seater-seat, alone,

Maybe he’s reserving those seats for me XD
Ahahaha!!!!

Great mind thinking :P

So, i didn’t talk to him or approach him during the first few minutes,
cause i don’t wanna look too desperate that he freaked out,
So, i approached him only after the middle of the journey,
and sat beside him.

He’s sooo cute!!!
Told him that i’m going to Malacca,
and he asked me to have the riceballs by the bridge :D
I love him so :D

He stood beside me in the train too,
i just feel like grabbing him and stand with him so close :D

*Every seconds count when i’m with you*
-Faber Drive

Stopped at KLCC with him,
he was surprised, as he thought im going to KL Central,
told him i’m going to Traders first :D
And i get his number!!!!
WHOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

I’m so glad!!!
He even asked me if i needed a pen to jot down his number :P
I’m soo in love ;D

So, we walked together to KL Convention Center,
where we parted as he wanna tidy up himself before going for work.
Awwww, my baby Darren.

So, reach college and meet Zombie and Shyan.
Zombie was really really really nice to borrow me his phone the whole day.
Guess what??
I sms-ed him!!!!!
And he replied, of course!!!

he even asked me to get him a souvenier :D
I’m so happy!!!!

And the most happy part is when he said,
all of a sudden,
“Gal, get anything from your heart”

AWWWWW!!!!
I was so glad that i did not ate dinner,
although the food was kinda nice la..

Owh and, Lunch, we went to the riceballs store that he mentioned :D
Tee hee :D

So, i got him:
-A Teeshirt, cause he seems to be wearing the same tee everytime i see him, poor baby
-”Kok-kok” biscuit??Cause he’s staying alone and he might be hungry, at least he have something to eat
-A really cool mini fan with cool design, incase he’s hot when he takes the bus/train :D

I love my baby Darren :D

Zombie was the star of the day men,
Joking about sharp/hard nipple to the toaster we went in (when we wash the car)
He’s soooo cute!!!
Let me tell you men,
this guy is the BOMB men!!!
I’m so glad that he tagged along in this trip,
he brightened up everyone’s day,
even though when the sky is dark :D

Loving you every second, Zombie!!!!

I’ve promised baby darren that i’m gonna fetch him back today after work,
so yeah :D

I’m seeing my baby darren, woohooo!!!!!

Love you Baby Darren, might bring you to the zoo this Friday :D

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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

D-a-r-r-e-n

*To stick with you is the best thing on earth,
and heaven,
Period*

So, i was super excited to get up early today,
knowing that i will meet my baby Darren as usual,
But some part of me is praying hard that i will see him.

And yes, i did!!!

I’m so glad!!

And you know what, he did not sit at his usual place,
instead, he sat at an empty place,
as in, those places are empty,
beside him and opposite him :D
Maybe he’s keeping them for me :D

I act as though i didn’t see him,
and i went and talk to him when i go behind :D
He’s so cute men!!!!

His voice is so gentle,
his lip is so luscious :P
I wanna kiss them so hard men XD

So we chat about lots of things,
and he stand beside me in train :D
And we walked together to Convention Center (KLCC)
as he neaten himself there :D

I love him so.

Going to Malacca today,
Zoom Zoom!!!

owh, and,

I GOT HIS NUMBER!!!

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Monday, April 27, 2009

You Gave Me A Promise

*I will hold on to, this love that i had,
You Gave Me Promise*
-Fireflight

Isn’t it obvious that this post of mine is all about L-O-V-E??

As Frank Sinatra says:

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

I’m so in love!!!!

First thing *Ahem*,

Bon Anniversaire and bonne sante daddy!!!
Love you always and may you be stay healthy and happy always with all your demons and satans here :D
I know you love us :D

So, i skipped class to send my baby nokia for repair.
Apparently, im not getting it back in a week time :(
Or more.

Putain!!!

Okay, so i went to klcc for pedicure,
as it was still early,
and bump into him XD

Yet,pedicure took such a long time that i thought im not gonna see him in bus.
But i did, although we didn’t meet in train :D

And,
I SAT BESIDE HIM IN BUS!!!
I so so so so deadly wanna talk to him,
when i turn my head,
he turn his, so i looked away.

I desperately wanna talk to him, but i didnt :(

So, he stopped at the Pasar Malam stop, as today got Pasar Malam,
As usual, every monday.
Then, i went home, and thought of driving to pasar malam and hopefully bump into him
But mum was mad and i had to feed my devils tortoise first.

And, i drove out.
And omfg, When i thought of parking my car under the tree,
I SAW MY BABY WAITING FOR BUS!!!

Off i go and stop infront of him,
and ask him up,
he was so surprised and he was so innocent,
asking, ME???
Im like, Yeah :D :D :D
Come on up, baby :D

The first thing i asked was,
Know Me?
Yeah, the bus one.
I thought you’re a Malay -.-

So much for Whitening Product.

I know where he stay, as i sent him right to his house,
Uhm, a shophouses btw.

He used to stay in Setiawangsa, but his mom wanna move to Sabah,
So he’s staying alone now, So yeah..
Poor baby had to buy food every monday.
i’m so gonna cook for him next time XD.

I know, i’m insane.
He studied Finance before this, smart baby of mine!
And he’s working at Menara IMC now :)
Fresh graduate, smart boy ;)

And his voice is..Owh-So-Calming and Owh-So-Gentle.
I feel like kissing him so hard men XD

Yeah, i know i’m crazy :D

He asked me my name, and my baby’s name is Darren!!!

My Baby Darren!!!!!!!!!!!

Before he left, he said.
“If got fate we shall see each other again”

Baby, i see you every morning and evening sometimes,
How can you say that?
It’s F-A-T-E.

I’m so glad i went down the hill to search for you in the sea of human being,
I’m so glad that i’m in love with you,
I’m so glad that you’re so innocent,
I’m so glad i met you.

I’m so gonna get your number baby :D

Yeah, I’m crazy!!!
I AM!!!

*You were there for me when i needed someone,
and i will be there for you whenever you need me*

I wanna take care of you,
I wanna send you home on Wednesday,
I wanna see you every morning and evening,
I wanna go to college with you,
I wanna brighten my day by seeing you,
I wanna brighten your day, by making you happy,
I wanna make sure that you’re safe and sound,
I wanna make sure that I will catch a movie with you,
I wanna make sure that i have lunch with you,
I wanna make sure that i will be your date.

Beware humans!!

Next few posts will be all about him!!!

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Sunday, April 26, 2009

Crazy for you..

*Some one invented the telephone,
And interrupted a nation’s slumbers,
Ringing wrong but similar numbers*
-Ogden Nash, Look What You Did, Christopher

Today, Sunday, marks my second day survival without a phone.
I was whining on how i’m so alone without my phone at all,

But something interesting is happening,

I seem to be much more peaceful without my phone.

Weird, isn’t it?

Yes, i do worry about who will be calling or sms-ing me,
and how important that matter is,
or whether it’s just a crap and lousy call for nothing,

Yet, somehow,
It’s good to be away from phone :)

However, i admit,

That I DESPERATELY miss my baby Nokia :(

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Saturday, April 25, 2009

Random Mini Update

*Lipgloss- A girl’s Best Friend*

I’m not sure if the above statement is true,
like, really really true.

I do admit that, i get really high seeing my huge collections of lipgloss.
Believe me , i BELIEVE that u do not wanna see my whole collection!!!

Just to give you an overview, I have one whole storage box dedicated to my lipgloss and i have more than 200 lipgloss and i don’t even know if i can finish it when i’m 100 years old.

Get it now???

Okay, so, after being so low and miserable and dissapointed and after much cursing around,
I’ve decided to rearrange my lipgloss according to their brand.

I have loadss of lipgloss from MAC, Bobbi Brown, Stila and Estee Lauder it seems.

gahhh..

Lipgloss whore.

I admit i’m one.
But somehow it’s not something staple in my makeup routine everyday such as Foundation, Powder, and Mascara.

Okay, stupid people are shouting behind,
OMG, I think they’re in somekind of exorcism ceremony!!!!

Okay, shoot.
Stop it.

I hate being left alone without my phone T-T

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Putain!!!!

*If it’s the Psycho Network why do they need a phone number?*
-Robin Williams

Cellphone-Basic or Essential??

Some of you might start with the whole How-i-still-can-survive-without-cellphone theory..
But sorry,
the winner of this topic for me is: Basic
Spell, B-A-S-I-C.

And the best part is,
My cellphone broke down!!!!
My baby Nokia N95 is still resting, haven’t send to the service center,
and i’m currently using LG Chocolate, touch pad,
but the thing is, the touch pad is not sensitive anymore!!!

Wthell men!!!

Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch.

And you know what??
I barely have time to send my baby all the way to Plaza Berjaya to fix it and bloody hell,
they’re close on weekends!!!
Wtfuck men,
Unless dad get me a new phone,
but i don’t really prefer it,
as i still want my baby nokia and i have a full long-list of numbers in it.
So yeah.

Wtfuck men..
I’m so dead!!!!!!

Anyway, if you’re reading this,
just to inform you,

You can’t reach me by phone now,
email me for god sake if u have anything.

When my post comes in about how happy i am to get my baby back,
then u can then reach me by my phone.

I feel so sorry for myself now ;(

Dread-some

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